Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Mark Allen Morgan Almost Here

So we are sitting in the hospital trying to get some sleep before the doctor's orders of an epidural around 3am and pitocin around 4am to induce labor. Thankfully, Jess hasn't been in much pain so far: 2 on a level of 1-10 (I am practicing my new nursing lingo). We have been resting in a deep peace for most of the night through the tears, laughter, and one too many phone calls. It is eerily quiet as we seem to be hovering in the eye of the storm after the flurry of activity today.

While everything is happening much quicker than expected, sitting in this moment it feels as if God's timing is perfect. I don't think I have ever felt his presence so real, my confidence so strong knowing how deeply he is loving us this very moment. I can only attribute this to all of you who have been journeying with us, praying beside us, and loving us through the hurt. We are nervous as to what is to come in the next few hours, but also excited to meet our son in person for the very first time.

We have decided to name him Mark Allen Morgan II. We had always planned to name our firstborn son after my father to honor his memory in a new generation. On finding out the news we wondered if we should give him a different name, but Mark seemed to be right. Then when my grandmother shared with us the vision she had of her son Mark Allen Morgan holding a baby in his arms in heaven in front of God we knew. Today my dad will become a grandfather, I will become a father, and God will gain another precious child all worshipping the name of his Son, Christ, until the end of time...

10 comments:

  1. Our tears and prayers have been with you throughout this journey and are especially with you today. We believe our twins were boys too, so our 4 boys will be playing together in heaven. We love you and are praying for safety for you, Jess. Words cannot express my pain and sorrow as I watch you go through this. May God give you peace. All my love.
    ~Amanda & Derek

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  2. Oh sweet Morgans. I am weeping & praying for you without ceasing. With great love & admiration, Wendy

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  3. May God's peace and comfort be yours.

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  4. Rob, Jessica, and sweet, beautiful Angel Mark,
    Thank you for your incredible spirit, and your awe inspiring, deep, deep LOVE. You have blessed everyone in your path and given Him the glory. May He hold you so close today and always.
    Bless you Morgan family. Love, Holly

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  5. Jessica,
    This morning I was prompted by the Holy Spirit to re-read your mom's Christmas letter to find your blog address. I believe it was no accident I read what Rob and you wrote this a.m. I have been praying for you and know you and the babies are in His tender care. Debbie Lawson

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  6. Jessica, you and Rob are in my prayers. This isn't a journey you would have chosen, yet I know you wouldn't have missed it. You are right, you are a Mom, Rob is a Dad and no one can say otherwise. Continue to rely on God as your strength in the months that come.

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  7. I heard about you two by my mother in law who works at Children's Hospital. My husband and I too are losing our baby boy to Anencephaly, and it's the hardest thing we have ever had to face. No parent should ever lose their child, and we just need to keep the faith and remember that our children are very special if God wants to take them so soon. Our dreams have been made and shattered all in a few months, but our babies will be lucky to enter heaven without this pretest we call life on earth. We send our sincere thoughts, inspirations, and prayers, and may God give us the strength to live, learn, and give others strength. Always remember, God will not give us more than we can handle, and we are all chosen for a special reason. God Bless you and your family.

    Sarah, Josh, and Baby "Bubby" Willey

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  8. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Natalie

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  9. Sweet Jess, my prayers are with you today.
    Love, Carla

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  10. Jessica and Rob,
    You are in my thoughts and prayers this evening...May God bless you with His everlasting love and peace.
    Love in Christ,
    Bernie Botz

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